Viktohreeah II

In a still small voice…

Every new year (in January), our church partakes in a 21 day fast to usher in the new year. The aim is to seek the face of God, ask him what His plans for you are for the year and to set individual goals.

I’ve always been wary of the whole ‘fasting and praying’ thing because I never know quite what to pray for or how to even go about it.

Do I shandala until the room shakes?

Or can I just sit in my bed with my bible open in front of me and just pray how I usually pray?

Usually I’ll fast and set time out to pray, but most often it ends up being me praying about a list of things that I’ve been meaning to pray about.

This time however, the message we were given to take away was that prayer isn’t just us talking to God, but it’s a two way street. Just as we have things we want to tell God, He has a lot more things He wants to tell us.

So, listen.

Easy right?

To be honest, there are times when I know that the voice I’m hearing is God (usually it happens when I’m reading my bible), but most times, I’m left wondering “was that God or am I just talking to myself?”

Last night, I had a dream.

I’ve had dreams before about friends and when I shared the dream with them, it had something to do with what they were going through at that particular time.

But this dream was different.

It’s never been this clear before.

When I woke up this morning, I was led to 1 Kings 19:9-13

9 And there he went into a cave, and spent the night in that place; and behold, the word of the Lord came to him, and He said to him, What are you doing here, Elijah?10 So he said, I have been very zealous for the Lord God of hosts; for the children of Israel have forsaken Your covenant, torn down Your altars, and killed Your prophets with the sword. I alone am left; and they seek to take my life.11 Then He said, Go out, and stand on the mountain before the Lord. And behold, the Lord passed by, and a great and strong wind tore into the mountains and broke the rocks in pieces before the Lord, but the Lord was not in the wind; and after the wind an earthquake, but the Lord was not in the earthquake;12 and after the earthquake a fire, but the Lord was not in the fire; and after the fire a still small voice.13 So it was, when Elijah heard it, that he wrapped his face in his mantle and went out and stood in the entrance of the cave. Suddenly a voice came to him, and said, What are you doing here, Elijah?

Like, how did Elijah know?

I believe it was because he was purposefully listening out for God so he was able to perceive when he heard Him.

I’m really excited to continue this fast. I’m keeping my eyes and ears open to receive from the Lord even among the distractions of every day life.

Chapter 1- This is really about that.

Two lines into the book and I’m already laughing!

“follicly well-endowed”

I was a bit confused as to why the author started the book with the story of the life of Jacob.

Obviously as I read on, I got to the bit where Jacob is explaining the meaning behind the rocks to his kid and I realised that the author had a point to the whole story.

I just wish he had got there faster.

Once he gets there however, Mr. Bell gives a very good introduction to the book and explains what it’s about.

I like the examples of the people and their situations.

I like that it already shows how God-centred the book is.

(Very important as I once read a ‘christian’ book that left me with more questions at the end of it than I had at the beginning).

I like that I’m giggling already.

I like that I want to read more.

Until chapter two…

#SexGod

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Am I a good leader?

Do I have a clear vision for the team I lead? Or am I just going along with the tides?

Is God at the centre of every decision I make?

Have I learnt from the mistakes the last leader made?

Have I taken note of the successes the last leader had?

Do I listen to suggestions and take them into account (whether good or bad)?

Why am I so scared of taking charge?

Am I doing this for my own glory or for God’s fame?

I don’t have the answers to all of these questions. But then again, I guess no good leader does… right?

#5MinuteWriting

Nothing like being in the presence of God…

…So I was feeling incredibly sad (yes, even after going to church today) and as usual, I put on Spotify and listened to my ‘I has the sads’ playlist.

The songs there helped…for a while.

Then I started to feel like I was drowning under the weight of my sorrow ( I can’t even pin-point what it is that is was making me sad- too many things I guess) and I thought I was just gonna break down and start crying in the living room with my parents looking at me.

Then I was reminded of the scripture Psalm 55:22

Give your worries to the Lord, 
and he will take care of you. 
He will never let good people down. (NCV)

I switched to my ‘Worship’ and playlist and listened to a few songs and worshipped God alongside the artist and immediately I felt better.

I’m not saying I’m happy and all chirpy and what not, but I can breathe.

Thank you, Jesus.

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Sons and Heirs.

I just watched a video where a Christian artist was explaining the meaning behind one of his songs. He stated that as he was reading Romans and 1st & 2nd Corinthians, he saw where Paul pleaded with God for the thorn in his flesh to be removed and God told him that His Grace was sufficient for him (II Corinthians 12:7-10), but he (the artist) wasn’t convinced of that fact.

The artist then went on to say he felt led to write a song about the ‘Grace of God’, thinking that if he sung it enough times, maybe he would eventually believe it. He said that as he was writing the song, he said a little prayer along the lines of “Dear God, thank you for your Grace that is sufficient for me. Even though I am a nobody, thank you for seeing me…”

When I heard this, my heart broke and I was reminded of a meeting I had earlier in the year where the person who said the closing prayer, also made a statement like the one above.

I’ve heard too many times where Christians have made such statements, firmly believing that they are ‘nobody’ to God. 

As children of the world, we would be nobody, but as Children of God, we are worth more than we could ever imagine. Surely, Jesus wouldn’t have paid such a high price for us if we weren’t worth anything, right? 

Romans 8:29-30 

29 For God knew his people in advance, and he chose them to become like his Son, so that his Son would be the firstbornt among many brothers and sisters. 30 And having chosen them, he called them to come to him. And having called them, he gave them right standing with himself. And having given them right standing, he gave them his glory. NLT

God knew us before we knew ourselves, and He called us to be His and because we are His, we are heirs of the promise he gave to Abraham (Galatians 3:29). We can’t go around thinking that we are nobody because the devil will take advantage and run riot in our lives but if we know that Jesus has given us Power and Authority over the enemy (Luke 10:18), we can walk tall with the knowledge that we are Sons (and daughters) of God and Heirs of His Kingdom.

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